Daylight
See the dew on the sunflower
And a rose that is fading
Roses whither away
Like the sunflower
I yearn to turn my face to the dawn
I am waiting for the day . . .
Midnight
Not a sound from the pavement
Has the moon lost her memory?
She is smiling alone
In the lamplight
The withered leaves collect at my feet
And the wind begins to moan
Memory
All alone in the moonlight
I can smile at the old days
I was beautiful then
I remember the time I knew what happiness was
Let the memory live again
Every streetlamp
Seems to beat a fatalistic warning
Someone mutters
And the streetlamp gutters
And soon it will be morning
Daylight
I must wait for the sunrise
I must think of a new life
And I musn't give in
When the dawn comes
Tonight will be a memory too
And a new day will begin
Burnt out ends of smoky days
The stale cold smell of morning
The streetlamp dies, another night is over
Another day is dawning
Touch me
It's so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory
Of my days in the sun
If you touch me
You'll understand what happiness is
Look
A new day has begun
Grace
Sunday, July 29, 2012
MEMORY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DPcf67Vyri0&feature=player_embedded
Who knew the full significance of this song, MEMORY, as our beautiful family watched CATS on
Broadway in New York...
Daylight, see the dew on the sunflower
and a rose that is fading...roses wither away
Like the sunflower, I yearn to turn my face to the sun,
I am waiting for the day-----from MEMORY in CATS
Who knew the full significance of this song, MEMORY, as our beautiful family watched CATS on
Broadway in New York...
Daylight, see the dew on the sunflower
and a rose that is fading...roses wither away
Like the sunflower, I yearn to turn my face to the sun,
I am waiting for the day-----from MEMORY in CATS
DESERT, DESERT, AND DESSERT
DESERT, DESERT, AND DESSERT...each one has significant meaning to me at this point in my life.
DESERT, the noun, the sandy, barren, isolated, dry, lonely place___I can relate to it, it is how I am feeling.
DESERT, the verb, abandon,____ a significant state of my mind, uncomfortable, sad, surprised, and mostly, disappointed feeling I have recently developed, whether a realistic one or not.
DESSERT, one should always enjoy it---you know what they say, "Life is short..Eat dessert first"
OKAY, so now what?... Curse the situations?... Wallow in self-pity?... Shrivel up and die? ...or maybe simply (or not.simply)...
Move to a new location where there is LIFE of all kinds, any kind...greenery, rain...HOPE
Bless them, and think, "oh, well, see ya when I see ya.", they either get it or they don't
and now, GO MAKE YOURSELF A delicious CHEESECAKE, AND ENJOY IT !!!
DESERT, the noun, the sandy, barren, isolated, dry, lonely place___I can relate to it, it is how I am feeling.
DESERT, the verb, abandon,____ a significant state of my mind, uncomfortable, sad, surprised, and mostly, disappointed feeling I have recently developed, whether a realistic one or not.
DESSERT, one should always enjoy it---you know what they say, "Life is short..Eat dessert first"
OKAY, so now what?... Curse the situations?... Wallow in self-pity?... Shrivel up and die? ...or maybe simply (or not.simply)...
Move to a new location where there is LIFE of all kinds, any kind...greenery, rain...HOPE
Bless them, and think, "oh, well, see ya when I see ya.", they either get it or they don't
and now, GO MAKE YOURSELF A delicious CHEESECAKE, AND ENJOY IT !!!
Saturday, July 28, 2012
bummed...
feeling bummed...Big Time Lonely, always. It's Saturday. All's so quiet. rarely get into anything. creativity is shot. want to 1%, but never grab at the life preserver Not helping God by helping myself. just waiting for Him to do it all, needing a miracle. Yesterday was Friday...and it was awful again...I was remembering how Friday was the best day of our week. It was our Date Night...but those are over. so much is over., except ugly grief. it's not over, and i fear it will be the never ending story..........
i wear sadness like a new skin
like a snake, that shed the old happy skin for this new
sad, sad, sad skin.
where are my children ? those babies we had and loved so, all grown up now with new lives, loves, needs...i see glimpses of them from time to time, i know they are out there...do they know i am here alone, always, lonely always. empty, disconnected, overwhelmed with thoughts about my future ?????????????????????????????????? ahhhhhh, compassion is a diluted drink, stale with life's passing.
who is this woman ? I hardly recognize her or her life now
i remember how contentment felt...you don't know it while you posess it, but when it leaves you know it was the most wonderful feeling...freeing, safe, assured, confident, peaceful, grateful. and then death steals it from you...never to live in your heart totally ever ever again. You will not know contentment again. Grief takes its place in your mind, your heart...your soul? I would give ANYTHING to sense that feeling, contentment, for one second. one second just one second. SLEEP is the closest gift that mimics contentment, in that everything stops, all pain ceases for a time when you go off into the blackness, the nothingness of sleep and therefore...you have a kind of contentment. Happiness...joy...many say---it is a choice. make that choice ! I think I want those things or maybe i don't really
would the yellow rose want to grow...
knowing the sun will never shine on her again?
could she grow at all ...
would she fight to survive, live, bloom, climb and stretch searching for the light
or would she... forlorn...simply wither and die.?..
i wear sadness like a new skin
like a snake, that shed the old happy skin for this new
sad, sad, sad skin.
where are my children ? those babies we had and loved so, all grown up now with new lives, loves, needs...i see glimpses of them from time to time, i know they are out there...do they know i am here alone, always, lonely always. empty, disconnected, overwhelmed with thoughts about my future ?????????????????????????????????? ahhhhhh, compassion is a diluted drink, stale with life's passing.
who is this woman ? I hardly recognize her or her life now
i remember how contentment felt...you don't know it while you posess it, but when it leaves you know it was the most wonderful feeling...freeing, safe, assured, confident, peaceful, grateful. and then death steals it from you...never to live in your heart totally ever ever again. You will not know contentment again. Grief takes its place in your mind, your heart...your soul? I would give ANYTHING to sense that feeling, contentment, for one second. one second just one second. SLEEP is the closest gift that mimics contentment, in that everything stops, all pain ceases for a time when you go off into the blackness, the nothingness of sleep and therefore...you have a kind of contentment. Happiness...joy...many say---it is a choice. make that choice ! I think I want those things or maybe i don't really
would the yellow rose want to grow...
knowing the sun will never shine on her again?
could she grow at all ...
would she fight to survive, live, bloom, climb and stretch searching for the light
or would she... forlorn...simply wither and die.?..
The DESIRES OF YOUR HEART
4 Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Psalm 37:4
Friday, July 27, 2012
Thursday, July 26, 2012
GOD'S PLANS FOR ME...
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
LOSING THE ONE YOU LOVE MOST IN THE WHOLE ENTIRE WORLD
From an Interview with Lisa Niemi Swayze, on the loss of her husband, PATRICK SWAYZE
“I said to her that it takes a long time for the pain to go away. And she said, ‘It never goes away. It’s not like you move on.’
“She was right. You learn how to manage. I have good days and bad days, and the good days get longer and longer. The whole experience of grief — of losing the one you love most in the whole entire world is unbelievably hard — and much harder than anyone ever told me it would be.”
Finally I asked what Lisa was going to talk about at the conference. She said, “I’ll probably talk about overcoming adversity. I’ll probably say this: Every morning, you have to reinvent yourself and decide how you want to live. I’ve met so many people from the most humble to the most famous, so I know that you can have everything you wish for and still not be happy.
“I said to her that it takes a long time for the pain to go away. And she said, ‘It never goes away. It’s not like you move on.’
“She was right. You learn how to manage. I have good days and bad days, and the good days get longer and longer. The whole experience of grief — of losing the one you love most in the whole entire world is unbelievably hard — and much harder than anyone ever told me it would be.”
Finally I asked what Lisa was going to talk about at the conference. She said, “I’ll probably talk about overcoming adversity. I’ll probably say this: Every morning, you have to reinvent yourself and decide how you want to live. I’ve met so many people from the most humble to the most famous, so I know that you can have everything you wish for and still not be happy.
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
1pre·serve
verb \pri-ˈzərv\
pre·servedpre·serv·ing
Definition of PRESERVE
transitive verb
1
: to keep safe from injury, harm, or destruction : protect
2
a : to keep alive, intact, or free from decay b : maintain
GRIEF
Are you grieving?
God cares that you hurt.
You’re devastated. Maybe angry. And trying to make sense of it all. Why did this have to happen? Why now? What will life be like without the person you lost?
You might feel alone or isolated in your grief, but you always have someone to lean on – someone who knows what you’re going through and responds with compassion. That’s Jesus Christ, who promises never to leave you if you put your faith in Him.
For those who trust in Christ, this sadness is only temporary. Not only did He make a way for us to experience indescribable joy in heaven, but He promises to help us through our grief on earth. In Matthew 5:4, He says, “Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.”
Would you like to experience the real, lasting hope found in Christ?
Find Peace with God Now
PHENOMENAL WOMAN
Child of God
Daughter
Sister
Aunt
Friend
Teacher
Writer
Artist
Creator
Wife
Mother
Grandmother
Widow...
Survivor !
Phenomenal Woman...Me.
Daughter
Sister
Aunt
Friend
Teacher
Writer
Artist
Creator
Wife
Mother
Grandmother
Widow...
Survivor !
Phenomenal Woman...Me.
Monday, July 16, 2012
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
DON'T MISS A THING...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=CsD61nKkqFE
..........................................DON'T MISS A THING.
..........................................DON'T MISS A THING.
HAPPINESS...
happiness is the consequence of personal effort.
you fight for it
strive for it
and insist upon it.
ELIZABETH GILBERT, HER NOVEL...EAT, LOVE, PRAY
MY BRONX CHILDHOOD
Grace Aprea Johnson EXACTLY the TRUTH of how it was==except skellies ??? never called the store --- bodega, mine was mostly an italian neighborhood. This post is not complete with THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN YOUR BRONX CHILDHOOD---THE JOHNNY PUMP !!! or hydrant...that's where all the kids COOLED OFF SCREAMING, GETTING SOAKED WITH OUR CLOTHES ON !!! AND THEN AN OLDER BOY GOT A WOOD BOX, that was also used to make SCOOTERS, and HELD IT OVER THE WATER FLOWING FROM THE JOHNNY PUMP MAKING A SPRAY THAT WENT UP TO THE SKY...and all the kids JUMPED AND SCREAMED LOUDER...until the cops came and we all ran away laughing and screaming...and they turned off the pump with a GIANT WRENCH, and all the kids watched as the water flow got less and less...and we were sad, because our summer fun ended...BUT NOT FOR LONG !!! BECAUSE AS SOON AS THE COPS LEFT===A DEFIANT AND DETERMINED AND OH SO KIND TEENAGE BOY REMEMBERING HIS YOUNGER DAYS, OPENED UP OUR JOHNNY PUMP AGAIN !!! AND THE SPLASHING AND SCREAMING AND LAUGHING BEGAN ALL OVER AGAIN...UNTIL MR. SOFTEE
Grace Aprea Johnson AND THAT BEAUTIFUL MUSIC WAS HEARD...AND WE ALL RAN SOAKING WET TO GET A NICKEL OR DIME FOR THE BEST ICE CREAM GOD EVER CREATED. THAT IS THE BRONX!!! some of my most cherished memories.
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Monday, July 2, 2012
CHILDREN LEARN WHAT THEY LIVE
If children live with criticism, they learn to condemn.
If children live with hostility, they learn to fight.
If children live with fear, they learn to be apprehensive.
If children live with pity, they learn to feel sorry for themselves.
If children live with ridicule, they learn to feel shy.
If children live with jealousy, they learn to feel envy.
If children live with shame, they learn to feel guilty.
If children live with encouragement, they learn confidence.
If children live with tolerance, they learn patience.
If children live with praise, they learn appreciation.
If children live with acceptance, they learn to love.
If children live with approval, they learn to like themselves.
If children live with recognition, they learn it is good to have a goal.
If children live with sharing, they learn generosity.
If children live with honesty, they learn truthfulness.
If children live with fairness, they learn justice.
If children live with kindness and consideration, they learn respect.
If children live with security, they learn to have faith in themselves and in those about them.
If children live with friendliness, they learn the world is a nice place in which to live.
Copyright © 1972 by Dorothy Law Nolte
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